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The Halfrican
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I decided a couple weeks ago to start a Daily Confessions segment.
Let’s get you up to speed:
Daily Confession #1 – I daydream about eating a giant tub of hummus. With a spoon
Daily Confession #2 – I turn up any Taylor Swift song that comes on & belt it out at the top of my lungs. Like I am right now
Daily Confession #3 – I have a girl crush on Emma Stone. And a movie crush on Zombieland
Daily Confession #4 – Woke up sweating @ 4am cuz Freddy Krueger was trying to kill me, just f/seeing the preview @ Zombieland earlier. >:(
Daily Confession #5 – I enjoy wearing rainboots when it’s not raining. Note to self: buy more rainboots
Daily Confession #6 – I can smell when it’s going to rain. Not unlike the dumb blonde girl f/Mean Girls’ boobs
Daily Confession #7 – ultimately, I’m dying to be in a hardcore band. Playing drums
Daily Confession #8 – I enjoy toying w/people on the road. In a legal and safely manner of course
Daily Confession #9 – I hold solo dance parties in my car and in my apt regularly
Daily Confession #10 – Fact: Blue M&Ms taste better than all the other stupid M&M colors
Daily Confession #11 – just downloaded Aaliyah’s last album she made in 2001. Love her
Ok, tune in daily for more dailies.
The Halfrican
So a lot’s happened these past few weeks.
A lot of which has made me stop and think.
Which isn’t something I do too often.
I’m usually more of a ‘how can I make this person, who is much in need of it, laugh?’ type of person.
But my life is taking a much needed turn towards the more thought-provoking things in life.
What brought this sudden change on, you ask? Something as trivial to some as breaking up with a boyfriend. To me, it was anything but. Boyfriends come and go though, right? Not for me. I’ve never had the mindset of ‘casual dating’, and I’ve always wanted my first boyfriend to be the one I would marry. Yes, this 28yr old said ‘first’. My point exactly. So as you can imagine, it didn’t end up that way. My boyfriend of over a year, dropped the bomb on me that he had decided to change beliefs to the polar opposite of mine, saying he was never really comfortable in believing the way I, or all of his friends, my friends, our friends, believed. I was stunned. I felt like I had had the wind knocked out of me and all our talks/plans/dreams for our future together had all of a sudden disappeared. To some, this may not seem like a big deal, but to me, it is. So long story short, I broke it off with him, and thank God we are still friends, will always be there for each other, and never want that to change.
Though this was the main reasoning behind this post, let me just fill you in on what else happened that week:
Monday: Contracted what I would later believe to be the very virus that would turn me into the beginning force of the zombie apocalypse.
Wednesday: Broke it off w/the bf. Went home at noon – couldn’t handle being barely coherent AND crying all day.
Saturday: Parents come over to help me around the house and take care of me 
It has been a very steady decline since monday with major dizziness, headaches, and congestion. By this point I can’t be awake for more than 4hrs without having to take a nap.
Sunday early am: Go to the ER because my nose has been bleeding for the past 2hrs with no sign of stopping. My zombie apocalypse theory is becoming more and more viable every day….
Sunday later early am: I get home from the hospital, only to find that my beloved and loyal fish of 2yrs has died. At this point, I couldn’t help but laugh from the irony of the past week. RIP Rocko, you are loved.
That was 2 weeks ago. My zombie apocalypse theory has waned (ask me about my blood bonding w/the zombie virus theory though…), and as far as being single again, there’s good days and bad days. I’m just trying to keep myself very, very busy.
Throughout this all, I’ve sadly realized who my real friends are. During the worst week of my life, there were only a handful of people that even asked what was wrong when reading my distraught tweets/facebook updates (ah, the modern age), some of which didn’t even live in my state, which amazed and touched me. This realization that some people just don’t hold true friendship to the standard that I do, really opened my eyes. Maybe they just didn’t consider me the friend that I considered them, but how hard is it to reach out to someone who’s visibly hurting and just say ‘hey’. I know this section may be tinged with a hint of bitterness, but it was not only this once, it was over and over and over when I needed to know someone, anyone, cared.
Which brings me to my second point: I am determined to be a better friend. I’ve always been happy with the fact that I try to be a very considerate person and constantly aware of people’s feelings, but there have definitely been times where I’ve seen that someone is having a hard time and I’ll turn my head. We’ve all done it, and it’s something I’m not proud of. So if there’s something I’ve learned in these past couple weeks, it’s that people’s hearts are fragile. And it only takes one to shut it down.
So enough of the depressing. Out of all of this, I’m rebuilding. I’m finding who I am again and who I want to be.
I have this new found zeal for life that I’ve never had before.
I want to dance, sing, record, learn, travel, meet new people, try new foods, paint, draw, read, explore….anything and everything.
I want to delve outside my comfort zone – It’s scary, but life isn’t worth living if you don’t take some risks.
So thank you to my close friends that are helping me during this ‘time of awakening’ if I may – You are so dear to me. I love you all.
And thanks to my old and new found friends in Portland – your friendship means more to me in our few years together or our few weeks, than you will ever know. I’ll be seeing you soon.
-Life moves pretty fast. If you don’t stop and look around once in awhile, you could miss it.- Ferris Bueller
‘The Halfrican’
So…. it’s been a while wordpress blog.
I didn’t mean to ignore you for 4 months, 20 days, and 13 hours….give or take.
It’s just that, well, I get busy, and sometimes I neglect certain areas of my life that don’t deserve to be neglected by any means. No, no, it wasn’t anything you did – you’ve been great! You’ve always been the one to be there when I needed to talk, or let off steam, or just joke around with. It’s not you, it’s me.
But I can change! I want to change! I don’t want you to wonder where I am at all hours of the night, and why I don’t visit as much as I used to….and well…I miss you.
So I guess what I’m trying to say is….I’m sorry.
XOXO
Angela
‘The Your Halfrican’
I got my very own iPod Touch today on my lunchbreak
I’m like a kid in a frickin candy shop!!!
But here’s something even better for all you design geeks out there like me:
Lucky…..
Or at least be more imaginative
Angela Adams
But I suppose I wouldn’t be complaining if people were buying my geometric-splattered rugs for $349-$1699 a pop.
Angela (Adams)
‘The Hafrican’
I’m having a superb day. And this is why:
-Got to have a very sweet text convo this morning w/the boy, which reminds me why I like him
-Spent last night hanging w/my bff Dena watching the olympics, Fool’s Gold (eh), eating carrot cake, and doing fun girly things that will go unmentioned so as to not freak out our significant others. But it involves looking at pretty things and dresses….
-Playing 2 shows tonight, one with my band Vienna and another with Vienna filling in for hiphop artist Faith. Very excited to show off my white side AND my black side. Doesn’t happen very often….I grew up in the suburbs….
-Was reminded of one of my favorite TV shows of all time- Mystery Science Theatre 3000! Filmed in Hopkins, MN about 15 min from where I grew up, it was a staple on Comedy Central for a long time. A man and 3 robots in space watching/mocking ‘D’ movies. I mean come on, it doesn’t get better than that. If you get a chance, check out Eegah. It’s my favorite. Plus it’s got Jaws from Moonraker in it. Skip past the credits, they’re dumb.
-Despite being back on my ‘diet’, I didn’t have time to pack food today for work, so against my better judgement (not really) I went to Taco Bell. Yum.
-Bought a vegan Coconut Macaroon cookie at my fav local indie coffee shop this morning. Definitely one of the best cookies I’ve ever had in my life and it just happens to be the cookie of the season. Ever. Period. Double yum.
-The new Cohen Brothers movie is being filmed across the parking lot from my work! It’s called A Serious Man and due out in 2009. There’s a guy outside the warehouse cutting something with some sort of mechanical saw….
-And last but not least – I get to see my boo this weekend! We don’t get to spend much time together now that he’s started his new job (9pm-7am 4 days a week) and he’s got band practice like everyday pretty much, so we grab time when we can
Angela
‘The Halfrican’
You ever have one of those days?
Where you sit at your place of employment just waiting, counting, and begging the time to pass just a little bit faster?
That day is today.
I think my choice of activities last night is partly to blame. I spent a very nice couple hours with my brand spanking new, awesome, and heavily tattooed bf of 3 days watching Family Guy, eating some yummy tacos I made, and discussing the space-time continuum. Well, not that last one, but I thought I’d throw that in for good measure.
So why was this not the smartest idea? Well I’ll tell you why. Because getting up at 6 am when you’ve had about 4 hours of sleep does not leave a person very capable (or awake for that matter) for the hours ahead. Plus, I couldn’t get my daily skim, 1 shot, coconut iced latte at my favorite local indie coffee shop because I was running a smidge behind schedule, and when I walked in, there were 3 people waiting in line, causing me to swear quietly under my breath. I debated for about 30 seconds if waiting was worth being late to work or not and decided not. So I headed to work sad and sans coffee.
So far my work day has been filled with such exciting and important tasks as spinning in my office chair, almost getting a headache but not quite, scrounging for change to buy a mountain dew (to try to make up for the lack of caffeine earlier that morning and to head off that pesky non-headache), staring off into oblivion, and lets not forget the most important task of them all. This of which must be done on a daily basis or who knows what obscene world incident would occur. The checking of the myspace/facebook accounts.
So yes. That has been my day so far. Not too exciting. Not too amazing. But here’s a little something for all you design nerds out there that Amos sent me the other day. It’s both exciting and amazing.
Angela
‘The Halfrican’
This blog is dedicated to Shawn and Iver
The best bandmates a girl could ever ask for
Deep Thoughts
By Jack Handey
Maybe in order to understand mankind, we have to look at the word itself: “Mankind”. Basically, it’s made up of two separate words – “mank” and “ind”. What do these words mean ? It’s a mystery, and that’s why so is mankind.
If a kid asks where rain comes from, I think a cute thing to tell him is “God is crying.” And if he asks why God is crying, another cute thing to tell him is “Probably because of something you did.”
If you ever catch on fire, try to avoid looking in a mirror, because I bet that will really throw you into a panic.
Dad always thought laughter was the best medicine, which I guess is why several of us died of tuberculosis.
Consider the daffodil. And while you’re doing that, I’ll be over here, looking through your stuff.
Instead of studying for finals, what about just going to the Bahamas and catching some rays? Maybe you’ll flunk, but you might have flunked anyway; that’s my point.
Sometimes I think I’d be better off dead. No, wait, not me, you.
Angela ‘The Halfrican’
It’s Wednesday.
And Wednesday night is the night that we make love.
Tuesday night is the night you go and visit your mother, but Wednesday night is the night that we make love.
Cuz everything’s just right, conditions are perfect. There’s nothing good on TV………….conditions are perfect.
This video never ceases to make me smile.
If I’m having a rough day, who do I turn to? My friends? No. My family? Sometimes. My Stylist? Only if I’m feeling particularly nappy. Nay, I turn to the quirky musical stylings and comedic fanfare of New Zealand’s own Flight of The Conchords.
For those of you that are unfamiliar with New Zealand, here are some fun facts about FOTC’s homeland:
- Lord of The Rings was filmed there
Yep. That’s pretty much it.
Oh, and they invented the Zorb
And their national bird is pretty cute 
But other than that….
So here’s to you Bret and Jermaine, thank you for brightening many a dull day and teaching me the following life lessons:
And finally
Angela ‘The Halfrican’
